Under Pressure.

" The only pressure I'm under is the pressure I've put on myself" -Mark Messier

Pressure, Pressure Pressure. Where do I begin? Lately I've been under lots and lots of pressure in both my academic life and my social one. I've tried things I shouldn't have, done things I regret, and I'm loosing myself in the process. And honestly you know the saying ' now there's no where to go but up'? Well, actually all I want to do is keep going down until I disappear, I feel like everyone has turn their backs on me, everyone is disappointed asking me 'why?' 'why?' 'why?' and it only makes me feel worse. I have no one to talk to because if I do I'll only dilute the way they look at me now. Sometimes I feel like I can't keep up with anything, and much rather fall back into a huge ditch, but I can't I guess.